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ok guys, me I got a new LJ you add me I will add you back. Its _35mm_
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[29 Jul 2004|10:01pm] |
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Ok so tomorrow should be amusing, I get to wake up, shower, read, make cards for people, read somemore, continue to read, then go to brooke's party all fast like, and then on to luke's party. Should be fun. Ok so yeah I like Jimmy Buffet, he rocks my socks. All his songs are about drinking and the ocean, and I think that is just the one thing (besides coffee) that my parents have like passed down to both me and my brother. Scary Huh? I hate the fact that school is going to start soon and that they are messing up our schedules. I better get both of my art classes in this year. Cause if I don't it could get very ugly.
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[28 Jul 2004|10:33pm] |
I think maybe after my brother and parents are asleep, I might go and lay out in the front yeard for a bit and look at the stars. I love the stars I really do. The fact that there are these things out there trillons of miles away and we can see them, even just a tiny glimpes of them. I've been listening to a lot of Graham Colton lately, and I really like them. I think I am going to go skate around somewhere tomorrow and try and get into shape. I need to get rid of my fat pudges (sorry Kole) and get in shape. Or maybe I will go and lay out tomorrow and read and just lay in the grass. That is always much fun. Than I can get even more tan and listen to my mom tell me how dark I am. Maybe I will go drivenig tomorrow.
Oh well give me a call if you have any better ideas.
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[27 Jul 2004|09:49pm] |
I love this song, and sense I can't find the lyrics anywhere I just typed it up. Its by Graham Colton.
Best Thing
You’re ready to go. I fake a smile; all that’s between us now is just 3,000 miles. I move closer to you, you cover your face, you tried for months to make me notice, that you’d rather stay. So why is it so hard to tell you that, I’m not leaving you here, and I want you to know that I’m so sorry I hurt you, you are the best thing in my life.
We kiss good bye, we’ve run outa time, I leave you standing there all alone, with strangers in line. Walk out the door, than I run back inside, your plane is taking off in to thin air, but you stayed behind. I pull you in my arms and tell you that, I’m not leaving you here, and I want you to know that I’m so sorry I hurt you, you are the best thing in my life. Somehow I know we’ll make it to the other side. We can work it out; you are the best thing in my life
You tried so hard
To tell me
I’ll do anything
I’m not leaving you here and I want you to know that I’m so sorry I hurt you; you are the best thing in my life. Somehow I know we’ll make it to the other side. We can work it out you are the best thing in my life
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[27 Jul 2004|02:28pm] |
So, yeah got school stuff in the mail today. Our schedule doesn't look to bad it should be interesting with only 3 lunches. It looks like we aren't going to have a study hall this year. It says that we have to go see who our homeroom teacher is. I wonder if they are changing them or something. We get to start later too. That should be much fun. Everything else looks like it will be about the same.
Sense I seem to always be bored...if you want to get together and hang out. Call me (770)924-1648 or IM me adrunkgirlskiss.
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[24 Jul 2004|11:20pm] |
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Today, today was awesome. That is the most fun I have had in a long time. I'm really starting to miss some people, it kinda sucks. I really wish I could talk to some people everyday like I am able to talk to other people. Oh well I will get over it.
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[23 Jul 2004|12:21pm] |
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Bored out of my mind. Probably going to swayzes tonight. Should be much fun I get to see Jackie and who ever else shows up. Haven't been to swayzes in..Forever..
Steffanie
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[22 Jul 2004|12:23am] |
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So yeah the past few days I have been thinking about what I would be doing if I was still in Minnesota. I really don't know which I like better. Now don't get me wrong I fully enjoy sleeping till noon and doing nothing all day, but sometimes I don't mind waking up and actully doing something either. Plus I miss all the people up there. It was also nice to have a little time where I could just relax and not worry about what was going on in everyone elses life besides mine too much. Not only that, but I hate only being able to talk to certain people online and not as much as I would be able to if I was there. Oh well, I am going to go watch the Sunday Night Sex Show.
Steffanie
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[21 Jul 2004|05:39pm] |
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So yeah school starts in like less then 3 weeks, and I still have to read 2 books and do my math packet, fun huh? At least we don't have block this year. oh well I got to go my brother wants the computer.
Steffanie
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[20 Jul 2004|03:51pm] |
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yeah I am home, and bored out of my mind, some body get me out of my house!!!!give me a call (770)924.1648 or im me at adrunkgirlskiss.
Steffanie
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[17 Jul 2004|07:20pm] |
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So like yeah guess what children...I am back...well kinda back any way..I am no longer at the camp..but still in minnesota..I will be back monday at like 10 somethingerother at night...missed you guys a ton...I got some big news...really really really really really really really really really really really BIG HUGE NEWS so damand ah moi and ask if you wish to know and I think you need to....and sense like none of you wrote me letters I am very disapointed...but hey whatever...
Je vous aime
Steffanie
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[18 Jun 2004|11:18pm] |
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Teehee..WOW Seth Green..PARTY!!!
ok so yeah this is probably be my last entry until I get home..so yeah I don't know what to say. I am going to miss all you people so you all better write me here is the address.
Stephanie Westerman
FH 24
Camp Holiday
4395 14th Ave. NW
Hackensack, MN 56452
There you go children...you better all write me, and I promise I will write you back.
Steffanie
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[18 Jun 2004|05:31pm] |
teehee......
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[17 Jun 2004|11:28pm] |
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hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe....is it bad that I find it really amuseing that my moms new cell phone make funny nosies when it opens and closes?
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[17 Jun 2004|10:50pm] |
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ok so aim is being a little whore and wont let me sign on. Of course who does my brother blame this all on when he has had the computer all day..me..so I redown load aim..no difference..I read the little help thing and it is like it is a problem with the main computers...or something...so yeah..of you want to talk to me im me on sip4253..
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really really really really bored...2 day until I leave...I need to read Brave New World before I go sense I can't read it up there. I think I am going to bring my math packet thing and get some of that done.
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Ok so I am bored out fo my mind. But aren't I always? Don't you just hate that? So today is Wednesday which means 3 days till I leave..PARTY!! Random thought...I want to know what it is like to die before I actully die. Maybe I am just werid..but I really want to know what it is like to die...ok random thought over...
Steffanie
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[14 Jun 2004|10:57pm] |
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I may not be happy in the conventual sense but I'm happy in my own way, can't that be enough? Can't you accept the fact that I will never be like you, that I will never have your kind of joy, but at the same time knowing that I will have my moments where I will be as happy as I can be. But with knowing that you have to understand that I will also have moments of depression where I will need your support to get though them. Please don't tell me to "look on the bright side" because I am trying. You are just going to have to accept that this is the way I am and that I am really trying to be happy but I don't know if I ever truely will be. But hey who fucking knows maybe one day I will find that one thing that will make me feel great about myself and I will be happy like I used to be, like that little kid happy where it seems like nothing could ever go wrong and the only thing that could truely upset you is a storm that stops you from going outside. But even then you shortly realize that you can go outside , just not in nice clothes or a white shirt. Theres another thing about being a little kid the only thing that really hurts was when you fell down and skined your knee or got a scrach on your arm, but you always knew that once it stopped bleeding that you could be right back to what you were doing. And you forget about it until it starts to itch or you bump it aganst something. But then it heals and all that is left is a little scar, but that too fades. Bust as you get older and you find more great things about life, like love, hate, sex, pain, depression, you get these scraches in other places, not on the outside but on your heart, your mind, and on your soul, and as those too began to heal you have scars but those scars are different they don't fade, they are never forgotten and they are a lot easyer to have ripped open again. You never forget how much they hurt or how much you wish they weren't there, you wish that you could let your self trust in people like you used to trust in your parents to make it all better. But you can't you are too scared of getting hurt again that you keep the pain to yourself, you let no one in, no matter how much you trust people there will always be some part of you that you don't share, no matter how much you want to. You always hope that when you "find the one" you will be able to let them in and that they wont hurt you like the others did. Maybe when you fidn that one person that truely loves you and would and could never hurt you the scars will fade. Maybe never forgotten but put away in the back of your mind. But who knows maybe even that one person can't even do that, maybe the only thing that can is you, maybe you have to be the one to make the scars fade, make the wounds heal. I don't know and maybe I never will but I sure hope that things get better.
Steffanie
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[14 Jun 2004|10:35am] |
| How to make a xfeelinstrange |
Ingredients:
1 part pride
1 part humour
1 part leadership |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Top it off with a sprinkle of lustfulness and enjoy! |
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[12 Jun 2004|11:52pm] |
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ok so yeah tonight was great. So yeah I leave in a week...YAY I get to be all gone like. Tomorrow should be fun...but umm yeah...I have a question...Who would ever iron their underwear...and if they do why??
Steffanie
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